I feel awful for standin Kevin up! I know its not my fault but I still feel really bad! I mean I told him that I was going to be there and I didn't go, and he had friends there that wanted to meet me. I feel like crap now. I am so afraid of something comming between us and I really don't want that to happen. I mean Ok I was talkin to Kimmie bout it today and she said that she thinks that we will get married! (me and Kev, not me and Kimmie!) I really hope something will happen cuz I like him so much and I know he wants the same. I mean I know Neill never wanted to get anything out of it. I know that for a fact. I was the only one that was trying to make the relationship work and that's not how it should be! It should be both working for the same goal. Not just one! And Kev and I are working to stay together...........acctually, we don't really have to work. It just comes so naturally. For some reason. I think that is the kewlest thing ever! GB

Ok. We have every thing worked out and its all humphy dory (sp?). I wrote him an email askin about it and it said that he just looked over that one. Gs I am a spaz! I can not believe that I let myself get carried away like that. Well, I have been hurt by guys more often than you think so.............that may be the reason that I am so afraid to loose Kevin. Is that so bad as to worry that much though? I know he is moving here in a couple months and he will be farther away from me than he already is, but it's already to the point where I feel like I am running on empty if I don't get to talk to him for a couple of days. I love him and there is nothing any one could say or do to change that! GBU

Like Autumn says....................you love him, he loves you, he just has his head up his butt right now........I think that is so true! LOL

OK y'all. My love life.......well........it sucks...to say the least. My last b/f broke up with me after 1 yr and 10 months (exactly) and then proceded to tell my friends that he fooled himself into liking me and that the only reason he went out with me was to get stuff out of me. I mean like sexual stuff. But he didn't seem to understand that I AM NOT LIKE THAT! Gs! That gives new meaning to thinkin with the wrong head all the time. He still does it too. Right after he broke up with me he asked one of my friends out and then proceded to make out with her right in front of me! What a jerk! But the guy I have now.......well............he is alot better than that. It's just that I checked out his profile and it says that he is single and that I am just one of his friends. Stink. Like major stink. I like this guy so much and he goes and does this to me. I don't get it. What did I do? I mean all I ever did was like him, maybe even love him! (I love Shrek!) But I am serious! I seriously love him. I know I said that bout the last guy I went out with,but I learned from my mistakes last time. What do you think? GBU